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Have to Wake up Early

Spent the Day at hope, supposedly caring for my wife. Cooked a Lasagna which was a lot of work. We cooked too many noodles so we have eat that for later. Anyway it was a success. My stores of bacon fat came handy when the ground meat was waterlogged when I was thawing it. Although because of the water, oil spatter was a problem in cooking the beef. This time the beefy smell wasn't so bad. I really have to take some time to cook out that raw-beefy-smell. Anyway, I have to make a list of things I will do as soon as I wake up. I have some water rations to prepare and some real rations. I have to be in Padi's Point Antipolo by 8ish. that means leaving at around 7:15 at the latest. Which will require about an hour or less of prep. I have ice coffee to help me wake up and start my dynamic stretching after I warm up a bit. But before that, some crackers and jam to stop my acidity from getting out of control with the coffee... and before that taking my Hepa-B med which requires me to

Upset Stomach

I have some unresolved LBM, it seems. Yesterday, I ate my usual mushroom and beef meal at jolibee and found some plastic in the food. Anyway, i thought about it and decided it would be worth a bother, I mean it was just a small piece of plastic. 1 and half hour later, LBM kicked in. LBM and Vomiting is a mixed blessing when I'm trying to keep count of calories. After the Caffeine withdrawal, I've lost about 3 lbs, which does not include my usual 2lb variable every morning and night. I know the Cilium and the Vomiting have a tendency to throw my cycle out of whack. Oh and I have this morning LBM thats triggered when I eat just right after waking up. So that was like 2 craps in a day. Today I'm out of whack, I feel nauseated. Since i have motion sickness I have some bonamine hidden in my pencil case and I took some. Damn, I'm still burping the kimchi from breakfast... It just like the time I vomited last sat, I was burping Tapa-king vinegar (ewwww). I didn't know wha

A complete Airsoft Gear Set

Thats my xmass gift for my bros. I've built up a complete military gear set. Its one of the few things that is much cheaper and bang for buck in the Philippines Compared to the states. Of course the problem is that my bros don't play... It makes it a pointless gift. A guy I know, gave his cousin a freaking AK and his cousin didn't play. That AK will sell for as much as 4k in the market even as 2nd hand. The thing is I haven't given my brothers any kind of gift that was ever big or expensive. Mom raised us a bit on the miserly side. But airsoft, its one of the things that makes wake up early in the morning. trying to share that with my bros, the way we used to share RPGs is a worth while gesture. In the end, since gifts are supposed to be something of a gesture and not just some utility I guess I fullfill that aspect of the action. Anyway, its not like we give each other gifts. This is one of the few things I feel strongly about. Anyway a BDU, complete with safety gear.

Depression

I'm not depressed, I've got a baby on the way... I'm excited. Although my brother is pretty depressed and I know where he is comming from, I have the scars to prove it. I have to convince my mom to let him go his own path... problem is he doesn't have any self-sufficiency skills because of the odd jobs they make him do. So in the end, my bro is unfulfilled. My dad is a bit of a user, thats where I get that tendency (which I've mostly delt with). He likes to be serve and someone else do the work. In his experience, doing things himself is limited to having the right people meet and the work that follows... He is my brothers burden and its what I want him to lose and give him a chance to find what he wants. Dad got my bro in Human Resource, a course which is worth only a remedial course in other degrees. It was VERY STUPID and the reasoning was very "get-rich quick" because "Humans can never be obsolete" thinking was severely flawed in too simplis

I think I'm sick

It would suck to get sick right now. Anyway, when I take deep breaths I find my lungs feeling peculiar. I'm feeling a bit out of breath and tired. I'll be resting a little bit longer. Wasn't able to eat regularly today. That withdrawal incident really did a number on me. I just have to take it easy. I'll take my multi-vitamins today and work out a bit. I have a number of articles and write up planned for my Gaming Blog and a wiki for my game system. Oh yeah that should be a bit of news. I have a wiki . Well a Wiki of my Open RPG System. Its meant for me to collect my own universal game system, designed using recent biometric studies and can be easily callibrated for style. Basically, use Freethinking to create a realistic but game-able set of data. Its easy when you admit or put out the premises you are assuming. As the System forms, different styles of play can be calibrated to allow for certain ranges of result to satisfy the amount of realism you want to affect the g

Caffeine Lesson

Your supposed to sweat out the coffee!? Awww man I was doing it wrong. I'm behind a desk drinking that much coffee with no exercise. Next time I'll wake up at 5 snack and coffee up, THEN sweat it out in a 4km jog. I'll get back to that soon. Thats my target for next week. Airsoft vs Soccer . Had only a few hours of rest before Airsoft. My only sport, since soccer is too expensive and too much of a hassle. You can't play lone wolf in soccer, you have to be part of a group and you end up waiting in line with other groups. Bottom line, Soccer is more hassle a sport in the Metro Manila for the average joe (because wealthier people live in villages and can access such fields). So the sport for the guy who makes enough money but is not part of an elite crowd is Airsoft. 2 kills in Airsoft! One Long-Range kill, because the marshal happen to be there. That is a Rarity! In fact, kills like this don't happen unless the guy is honorable enough to admit it. I got lucky, the m

Severe Caffeine withdrawal

Well my experiment had some very nasty side effects. I had a really bad caffeine withdraw, well what I think is withdrawal. I had a terrible head ache the rest of the day when I went without coffee because I wanted to sleep and wake up early for the airsoft game. Vomited my head off since 12 mn and again at around 2. Finally got to sleep at around 4 and had to wake up at 630 to get ready for the game. What a load of crap just before the day of the game. I wasn't even able to exercise the day prior. I'll be hurting later. Funny if you call this serendipitous, the first time I got to sleep after my first vomit, my brother called to check on me which woke me up. Very generous and nice of him, to relate to me he was getting us a Wii fit (short for the balance board). It was really nice of him, but there was no way for him to know I was going all pukey shit a couple of hours before and still had much to go. Second vomit was mostly water and all the solids that failed to go up. M

Wonders of the Axial Age and Hundred Schools: Another lauding of Sun Tzu

Sun Tzu is one of the earliest skeptics and empiricists. Learning that the Assyrians played Dice with the gods to decide on their Tactics, while Many warlords did the same through auguries and all sorts of omen reading, its just so many kinds of awesome to know that Sun Tzu who existed at 7C BC was one of the earliest Skeptics/Pragmatists. At least his works survived the burying of scholars and the destruction of the hundred schools ordered by the first Emperor. Soldiers when in desperate straits lose the sense of fear. If there is no place of refuge, they will stand firm. If they are in hostile country, they will show a stubborn front. If there is no help for it, they will fight hard. 25. Thus, without waiting to be marshaled, the soldiers will be constantly on the qui vive; without waiting to be asked, they will do your will; [Literally, "without asking, you will get."] without restrictions, they will be faithful; without giving orders, they can be trusted. 26. Prohibit the

Failed my Save vs Spell: Civilization IV

Slept late again because I failed my save. Civ is really insidiously designed. I've been drinking 3 cups of Vietnamese Coffee in the morning in the past two days. It has that sickeningly sweet smell that makes me want to puke, and it takes a measure of willpower to stop myself. I can't wait till I finish it and move on to the regular local blend. Now, i remember why I prefer expresso shots: 2 onces ad 150 mg of caffeine. compared to 3 cups for that 400 ish mg of caffeine. I bursting full of fluids in the morning. I also have my 2 glasses just to push down the Cilium fiber supplament that also makes me want to hurl. Wake Up Make Coffee 5mins Force Down 2 glasses of 2 tblsp of Cilium 15-30mins later: Eat Bfast and wash it down with 3+ cups sweetend and Iced Coffee. I can't the coffee by itself on-account of the acid. (150kcal from the sugar) Around night time, when all my mental reserve is spent I'm my compulsions are much harder to resist. GURPS-wise its a -3 to resist s

Airsoft Invitations

I only have one spare gun and because of my gregarious nature, I always invite someone to join me in airsoft. Right now, I have to juggle several potential invites. My usual invite, Arj, is leaving at the end of the Month to crew a ship for 6 months. Until that time, I don't have a buddy slot open. My wife and captain notice that I'm a bit too gregarious being so easy to lend my gun to bring another person to game. Its made easier since my brother gave me a second set of BDU. part of the reason I want to get a Galaxy MP5 (3,000Php!) is because I can invite one more person (maxing out my car capacity). @ Arson and Strength Building. I'll try that with the Dynamic Flexibility exercises. That should prevent injuries while building up strength (necessary for overcoming natural obstacles).

330mg of Caffeine will do the trick

Ok i got a grande brewed coffee and put 8-10 packets of brown sugar thats about 155 calories. This is twice the amount of Caffeine i get from my 2 shots of espresso in the morning with 4 teaspoons of brown sugar. How do i feel... Better! although my face is reeling from the bitter after taste of the coffee. good coffee is really sour going down and really bitter after. The intense sugar tends to make the sourness taste fruity. Anyway, my is elevated and I'm a bit hyper but i am able to control that better these days. The tons of notebook and the emotional intelligence studies help. Particularly when i've broken down most of my peculiarities and the way I think. Heck, I think i can make an entire wiki based on how I'd react to certain things. It would be very revealing and transparent of me, and of course like the anything so vulnerable subject to abuse when falling in the wrong hands. I have to email, a friend back some airsoft details.

I gotta wake up early

Sprained Knee . Anyway, been waking up at around 10am. I was just working to get more and more productive hours then WHAM! I twist my knee. The all that running and working out went out the window. What a waste, I lost 2 inches and was moving towards an average of 166lbs. CaPHeine . So now, starting again but better than scratch. I'm trying to get the old hand-me-down espresso machine fixed. My morning ritual includes 2 shots of espresso with 4 teaspoons of brown sugar (150 gm of caffeine and 56 kcal?). Holy Crapa-licious! I'm in it for the caffeine and strangely brown sugar tastes so much better than mascovado this way. Although a brewed Coffee Venti has More caffeine at 480 mgs. I can down the espresso in 2-3 gulps. I don't like to linger with it, I just want the chemikals in me and running. Being a slow riser, my optimum productive hours comes 4 hours After I wake up or as soon as I get my heart pumping. Quirks . Because sleep makes me forget reality completely I need t

at the dfa

it takes 2months to sched an appointment in the dfa. it costs Php1200 for rush processing of 2 weeks (10 workdays) and an additional fee for delivery. government bureaucratic systems are less accountable because they don't have market forces to make them accountable. given the demand for efficiency, some creative financing could possibly raise the processing cost with a much more ripp-off costs will have a market. maybe a 1 month sched slot for an additional 500, 2 3 weeks 1000, 2 weeks at 2000. basically it won't be a rip off if these highly inflated cost variables pay off the ofw processing volume. if ofws can just take month instead of 3 that wound be good progress. private grants for walk overpass, and a commercial waiting area that allows to cater to these thousands of people here per day. can pay for itself and ease the mind of the people. gov. have very little incentive or punishment to fix itself. deals that can make this profit takes only permission and a well writte

Science and Gamer Blogs

I've been filling my Gaming Blog more and more with my science musings. It kills my readership according to my Analytics and I can understand why. Still, my facination will not stop. lately I've thought about Loss Aversion since i've seen it often enough in human behavior and it is considered a "irrationality". Now, I'm on the stance that Loss Aversion needs context. It is considered an irrationality when the effort or resources that go into minimizing loss, is less than the potential gain if that effort was used to increase gains. So if I had a life style that made me spend Php15,000 a month, and I had 10 hours free to use up, I'm more likely to spend the 10 hours a month reducing my php15,000 by 10% or 1,500 than spending the 10 hours earning Php2,250. This irrationality is very touchy because, i find it completely rational if you change some parameters. Here in the Philippines and, from what I hear: India, there is a mentality that there is a finite a

LBM strikes!

Too much milk... the mcdonalds cappuccino is MUCH cheaper than the starbucks one, with negligible level of quality for price difference. For breakfast a basic burger and fries meal but with a extra shot cappuccino for drinks. Salt overload with no aspertine to wash it down -Yeach! Anyway, today I'm supposed to go to Lito to buy BBs and the BDUs for my bros. Lactose Induced LBM and double dosage of Cilium makes for a very Poopy one-two punch on my bowels. Well, here is one of the fastest ways to lose weight not that I can't run in the mornings. Damn, does the inches come back SO FAST when I'm not running. Its harder to get up in the morning, since part of my endorphine supply is from that work out designed to psyche me out for the next airsoft game. read a chapter of my EI book which I lend out to a friend here in the office, wrote a good article for my gaming blog, and feeling like I'm getting into control. I will be a bit spendy today because I have to forward some exp

Found the HD

I found the HD, its black so on the third sweep I found it. The Left rear tire loses air much faster than the others and I'm missing a nozzle cap for it. Will try to remember to buy one. Found my DFA passport schedule details. it takes 2 MONTHS to sched passport renewal. Conflict with traveller game with Bobby and the FF meet ups. Bobby's games are rarer and I'm not needed at the meet ups. Need to prep my game stuff for Sunday Airsoft Games. Created my "Ritual" of preparation list, and will post it in my airsoft blog later. I will be buying a spare mask. My uncle (my mom's cousin) is interested just to see what happens in a game, invited him to check it out. Have to fix my minis so that I can send them to PinoyAtheist for painting services. He and his Brother is a diorama painters and competitors in such contests. I just want the stuff painted and cleaned up. I can afford to pay for services rendered the just price, anyway i'm not in a hurry. Finally get t

I'm missing my portable HD

Missing portable HD . I can't remember where I last left my portable HD. Checked our home our Car My mom's office, (which I am made to sit in while she is gone). Whats left is possibly dropping it on Wednesday when I was at my friends house for a traveler game. I should post what happens in my days more often in my blog. It will help me retrace my steps when I forget something. sprained knee update . Gotten a lot better. I can pretty much walk, but weakened leg. After coming from the orthopedic doc it seemed that it was a very minor injury. Lack of swelling would be the main clues. Alergy update . the wife and I slept on separate beds because of my alergy. We really need to find a bed cleaning service. neozep has been helpful with the times the dusty room has been stuffing my nose. Chinese Lessons update . Been distracted, started again. Airsoft . Will be fixing my guns tonight. Have to clean the barrel, unwind and refill the mags, and charge the batteries. I just called lito i

looking back.

what is significant abt this experience is that, its the first time i'm too injured to play. I get sick often, about 2x a year. injured in this way is the first and an inevitable cost of being behind on my strength exercise. after a long hiatus because of the gun ban, I forgot how much I tried to translate my soccer fitness to airsoft. being tough because of mu optimized weight to strength ratio has really been afected by my weight gain. I hate that this kind of weakness can rob me of so much of my hard work getting back into shape. it just sucks. I should have sched an ENT before today and hit two birds with one stone. lately the neozep antihistamines have been helping with my sporadic cases of congested sinuses.

Extinct goat was cold-blooded

Extinct goat was cold-blooded : "Extinct goat was cold-blooded" from GURPS Ecosystems . The brain being a energy hungry organ, needed meat because it had a higher energy pay off. With the intelligence and autonomy of computer programs the "Ethics" of Veganism or Vegetarianism seems not to be cost effective. If people think there is no price we can put on life, think again in a behavior economics perspective. There IS a price, and we show it in every action we choose in lieu of saving one. Part of Emotional Int is figuring out what we really stand for, not what we think we stand for. Admitting to indifference is not evil. There are lives lost every minute that can be saved by direct action, if Life is as "precious" or sacred as people put it, but it isn't. Like when a Priest or the Religious cry out against abortion or contraception, do you think if they really cared they would have studied up the matter and put themselves face to face with the people t

Sprained My knee

the pain is from the outside of the knee. Its my left knee and the left side of it. I can tell because if i rest on my left side it hurts more than when I rest my right side. No inflamation so far. Not a bad game day, 2 mutual kills. One was because to shoot at each other at point plank is dangerous since i'm using 410 fps with .25 bbs. Most masks are for 400fps at .2 bbs. He even argued against the mutual kill when the marshal saw everything because he shot first. Shot first!? If i shot first he might be blind or worse. 2nd mutual kill was actualy what happened when I sprained my knee. Fell down and shot at a bunch of guys, I could see my BBs fly straight at them but he ONLY called himself a hit after ME. Obviously another cheat. I'm at the bed and may be sleeping early. My alergies are better now because of the change of bed. I really wish I heal quickly, no running for the next few games as long as I get a working knee back. I know how next time to prevent it. I have to buil

Diet Progress

A waistline from 38.5" to 36.5"! Thats jogging everyday! I guess it would be asking too much if I could possibly reach my old waistline 32" (or my teen waistline at 30 sigh...). My weight is still 170ish. So it means I did gain some muscle and I feel it too. As a standard, I run at about 7kph in the treadmill to see how long I could keep up and I was able to maintain it for 10 whole minutes. As I've mentioned before I'm working towards fighting shape, which is being able to sustain-ably march 5km per hour for 4-5 hours. Without travelling 20-25km that means I should be able to sustain running higher speeds at longer durations, since speed exponentially increases work. I've not been eating much, but I guess the Cafe Mocha Grande (360cal) is a bad but the elevated heart rate i've been observing is good since it has two shots of esspresso. Maybe I should just wolf down 2 espressos, that should be cheaper and lower in calories. I wonder if it being cold redu