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Ignoring excuses; The Promise of Growth

I've been getting a lot of flack lately. Despite my efforts. At night I'm on autopilot so I'm very distracted and very unproductive. One of the few things that gets my adrenaline up a bit is my airsmithing or my airsoft... to the very disgust of my wife. Sadly thats how interests are, they are pretty much out of our control. No one chooses to like something, without spending a lot of resources to do so... and I don't have resources to like something I don't naturally like. My mother has been complaining about my stomach, not wanting to take any "excuses". I've been dreaming and remember my dreams. Basically i've been having bad sleep and waking up with cramps... all pointing to a lack of oxygen and respiration. In sleep, I've been taking anti-histamines/benedryl, keeping my head, painfully, above my chest in an almost sitting up position, and needing fluctousine now and then to keep my passages open. My wife doesn't think so kindly on my ex

Human Limits Wikia

Human Limits Wikia . It only make sense for a person who looks at life at the angle of a gamer to make a Human Performance Wiki. After all those GURPS forums debates on human performance, to think it is actually useful in real life. I'm sure there is one already out there, but I'm also sure any such one is considered a trade secret. Being a gamer means looking at the advantages and the disadvantage and constantly making decisions and optimizing. Gamers use rules of thumbs, aka Heuristics. These are little strategies or concepts that work like tools to model a much more complicated and intricate system (the real world) and find answers to maximize utility. Interestingly heuristics can also be used to make RPG rules, particularly regarding the limitations of characters. It's a fascinating cycle for a game designer to study the real world and try to model it, because it happens to be what scientists do in general. The interesting thing about the Gamer perspective is that to

Human Limits Wikia

Human Limits Wikia . It only make sense for a person who looks at life at the angle of a gamer to make a Human Performance Wiki. After all those GURPS forums debates on human performance, to think it is actually useful in real life. I'm sure there is one already out there, but I'm also sure any such one is considered a trade secret. Being a gamer means looking at the advantages and the disadvantage and constantly making decisions and optimizing. Gamers use rules of thumbs, aka Heuristics. These are little strategies or concepts that work like tools to model a much more complicated and intricate system (the real world) and find answers to maximize utility. Interestingly heuristics can also be used to make RPG rules, particularly regarding the limitations of characters. It's a fascinating cycle for a game designer to study the real world and try to model it, because it happens to be what scientists do in general. The interesting thing about the Gamer perspective is that to

Dream: Giant Mutant Baby

I had a dream about being in a new place, neighborhood and people and circumstance. I assumed it was after some disaster because it looked desolate and there was few if any people. Anyway, there seemed to be a house where the occupants have gone and a very large baby was left behind. It was a strange deformed baby, whose face and proportions were disturbing. Anyway, it was a scary thing. We decided to leave it alone, but another family took pitty and took it. This other family was rather large, unlike the wife and I. They had some events, and we were invited. I was being cautious around the strange baby. Over time people ended up missing. Since it was just the wife and I, we were easy to watch over each other. I got fearfull and started stocking up on weapons. Thankfully dad gave me his glock, and we found survivors of the original household f the strange baby. We learned that it just ate people and grew pretty large. The next time we encountered it, I answered a gate of the house and

So Many projects, i gotta write it down.

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Of course many are speculative, trying to see if they will work. Other than that I do have some real project also. Speculative - WW2 Gun Replicas . I can't say owning a factor is an everyman experience, but one can relate with anyone who owns his own business. Down time for a factor sucks because it still has the same operating expense, despite lower productivity. I know a WW2 airsofter who can make custom made replicas, and the engineers at the plant loved poking and the possibilities we can do with replica airsoft guns. So I am asking if they, the ww2 replica making hobbyist, is interested in making airsoft replicas of guns that are not in the market but have an incredible Collectors value. If this works out, we can have a down time project that can possibly earn a few million pesos. The idea is to make a limited edition and STEEL replica. Not Crappy ZAMAC (zinc aluminum alloy) that could crumble but STEEL that can take a lot of punishment. Speculative - WW2 Aggregate Suppl

I was called Don Quixote in HS

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I find this funny because of that reason. Also I freaking tried to read the book and listen to the audio book. Holy fuck it was mind numbingly boring... except for the tidbits of 17C life style.

Civilization-like: Project Completion Time for Govt Projects

I noticed how Civ-like are some government projects. the years it takes for them to assemble the necessary assets to bring them into fruition. In the Philippines there are a lot of laws that try to prevent corruption, I do note that in my Game Theory lessons, more complicated laws don't actually help in making things more above-board, its actually transparency, in the case of government and accountability, that does. Anyway any government project here in the phils will take about 5 years or more when it involves buying land. It also has severe obstacles regarding the relocation laws, since there is a stupid law that incentivises squatters to settle on gov. land to get free land which they can sell, and start the cycle a new. One severe limitation for any gov't project is the amount of manpower in pulling it off. Since there are severe Trust issues, and the corrupt who have a lot to profit can easily derail any project, if there is not enough man power to make sure every step an

Seeing my boy's face; my Quirks: Charging into things

Wow, its pretty real now. I really have someone who's forced to carry my genetic material LOL. Hope he can overcome all the little neurological quirks that come with parents. Self Programing . In the Lecture: The Passions, Intelligence of Emotions by Prof. Robert Solomon I've come to think more closely about how decision making works in emotions. I've conditioned myself to respond to certain things with a different emotion. Now I've come to realize that One can hone or refine a cruder emotion when we are conditioned to frame, for ourselves, reason to feel something else. In the lectures I realized that I've been framing my internal dialog, convincing myself of different and more successful course of action or emotion. My wife finds my emotional responses weird and strange, and this highlights how much it such programming and self improvement is very very rare. My extremism or how I rush into the conclusions of my new assumptions is a character trait that is remarked

Low Quality Pic of the Baby's face.

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He's on his left side. On the left you can really see the nose and the lips. On the right you can see the eyes closed the lips and nose squished against a flat surface. The little guys is going to take after his mom.

Fitness and the Passions

First, fitness . I've been reading up on heart rate. If you've seen my game in the brain blog, I've come to realize how usefull it is a tool. So much so that I've come to think maybe I can do a personal experiment. The experiment: Observe my heart rate in my daily activities, taking note how I feel and my condition. It is a simple enough experiment, getting to know myself has become the overall theme of this week's research. Carefull observations and understanding of how fatigue and energy levels work, and how to simulate or replicate it in a Game Model, particularly using GURPS 4e. Revelations about my Workout . First . If I am to do +60% BPM at rest, "fat burning mode" then exercise should be EVERYDAY. I need to lose weight to help my breathing, my sleep apnea particularly. I have to get my weight under control and lose about 25lbs to hit my ideal weight: 150lbs. Now FAT burning mode is a very slow way to lose weight. Eating up calories requires more m

Best Alternative to Negotiated Agreements youtube

BATNA Youtube Searches In the Side Project I'm working in, I hope to make BATNA exercises for the everyman Filipino. PinoyAtheist is helping me with this one, hopefully my wife might be interested and help give her CFA eye in the material. I see there is a great potential and opportunity in making this available to the everyman Filipinos. Exercises, and Materials in BATNA is one of the few academic ways of learning negotiation, and communication. Facilitation of the exercises are not only valuable to an individual, they are valuable to companies who are willing to pay for such training services for their people. Strangely this is much like writing a RPG adventure, of course nothing fantastic... or is it?

My Boy's Nose

My wife and OB saw my Boy's nose in the Ultrasound and it is big like her's and her father. I can't help but admit it makes me love my wife and my boy more. Having sleep apnea, I hope my boy doesn't end up having my respiratory problem. I kept waking up again, I'm not sure if its breathing related. My back was really warm, I wear my very old Jacket, the one my dad bought me when I was fresh out of high school, to bed. It keeps my back warm, since my lungs are easily chilled from my back. New Conceptual Selling . Nothing really new to people who want honest and more open communication. It is really more new to anyone who's been conditioned to look at potential clients as prey. Reciprocation is its most general meaning is the fundamental underlying principle in communication and socialization. You can say communication begins when you can can reciprocate any stimuli or action. I've been reading up on Confucianism, one of the OLDEST schools of Reciprocationism

Not Checking the FF forums; the World is Simple - NOT

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I'm in the middle of a debate and I don't want it to derail my current responsibilities. I've been recently given more work, although according to my mom I can ease into it. Now given the limited resources of time I have I thought maybe I should not get into this debate since it robs me of 2-3 hours researching and double checking my answers. It can be annoying when an opponent is in denial instead of providing a reasonable answer. In fact my job should be easy since, he has to provide proof BUT these people who think the world is as simple as they think it is, never understands what it takes to come with accountable answers. Dealing with money and entrepreneurship I'm supposed to provide proof. Gone are the days of my dad who just has to keep taking risks on till they hit it big. The game has escalated and an advantage can be lost instantaneously. So I hit the books and study the science, the report on reality is not good: ITS NOT EASY. This is something I find complet

A Promotion

My mom, the Business owner, is asking me to take more responsibilities. So in essence this is a promotion, unfortunately it is a personnel management. So I have to really be first at work, last to leave, and on the ball 5.5 days a week. Its scary and exciting at the same time. I'm not wholly unprepared for this, my arguing and dealing with difficult people is what I knew I was eventually getting into eventually. So there is where all those readings about psychopaths, cognitions and judgement and decision making sciences went. This is where lectures about diplomacy and empathy was supposed to be preparing me for. GMing was supposed to help, as I was also managing players and and their honesty. Problem solving is what I do anyway. Its what I do when I research on Theistic arguments that use purely Hypothetical Constructs. I supposed to be prepared for this, but not in any way certified by a academic body. I did only graduate an arts degree, although a technology related arts degree.

Pocket Book Idea

This Idea comes from my own habits and needs. I don't want to fall into as many mental traps as before, so I learn more and more about Fallacies and Cognitive Biases. Its come to a point that I carry print outs around and when I catch myself with the intuition that there is something wrong with the line of reasoning, but i can't find the name and exact definition I need. So Why not make a Pocket Book of Fallacies and Cognitive Biases. I was looking for one online and I've struck out. I'd rather someone else make it, and I'm happy to fork the cash for one but it seems like something no one is enthusiastic about. I know it can be annoying, but for someone who wants improve themselves I think it is an awesome Self examination and Reflection Tool. I always second guess my self and its come very handy in keeping irrationalities in check, what more the augmented memory of the information written down. Its as much an EQ tool as much as an reasoning aid, because I think it