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I'm ill and I have to resign

Resigning . Technically my contract states that upon regularization I will need a 30 day notice... But i'm not regular. So I guess I can just submit my letter of resignation, take my stuff and leave. I'm Ill . Actually I can be absent a couple of days until i get better, then resign. Its better to get it over with. 30 days notice for a job that underpays? At least compared to all the people who resigned, I tried to keep it civil. Hopefully our GM or Director doesn't make it any harder than it needs to be.

Fever

Symptoms: Slight runny nose, Itchy throat, weakness, head ache, body pains. I cant sleep or oversleep, it gives me a dull pain near my belly. I wish i can get better in time for work.

SO TIRED!!!

woke up at 6:30 to get to work before 8. Left 8 projects to render before taking a half day. Got home by 2:30 and tried to fix the computer and install essentials till 5! Got to PCexpress by 6 and got stuff fixed by 7. Got home by 7:30, started finishing up the last bunch of work related stuff Made dinner and cleaned up 1hour Finished 1/3 of what i need for tomorrow. :(( I will have to quit work and do this full time. Anyway its almost TRIPPLE what I get paid.

Need more time... or a ring of sustenance.

Monster Buster Club . I watch cartoons and it helps in the profession that I'm in. I stumbled on this little gem a few months ago but only now did I stumbled on it again and remember the name. Anyway, what goes through the mind of a 3d artist like me is "Could we make the same or better quality in the Philippines but Cheaper?" Blood Residue . Still have some residue. I think its from the increased acidity of eating much less. Some acids are still pretty potent as it goes down. Anyway, I hope I'm better and I'm eating a bit more... even against the wishes of my vanity. Half Day . I need to take a half day. i need the rest and my system is a bit screwed up. A busy week-end . Busy busy busy, archery, bdays, and work.

Bloody Sh*t

What a monkey wrench in the works . Hopefully there is nothing seriously wrong, or minorly wrong, just something that needs the minimalest attention. I need to get so much done and the timing could not be worse. Archery . Went to the Archery Center, in the FRDC bldg. Its Basically along C5, in the unlikely bldg beside House of Mini's. It's an 18m indoor archery range. Basically a great place for begginers who live nearby. Chat and I had an hour and a half lesson for 500 each. Next time we'll go there and ask if they have a promo for multiple sessions. it is a sport that my wife and I can both participate in and we both like. Mornings while not at work . Will try to wake up eary to jog in the comming week ends. Dexter . So many fun parallels pertaining to Dexter of Dexter's lab. Anyway. a disturbing and effective thriller for a weekly show. Editing it must be a b*tch. My current fav right now.

[Sorry but] Schedule Full till Mid - October

Sorry, as I have said in my past posts. I will be very busy. I'll find time to celebrate trisha's b-day but I'll have to get serious the rest of the week. Sorry guys but I really need to do this. I'm proving to myself and to my folks I can kick ass and I really need to bring myself up the career ladder if my dreams of family and kids are to be any more reachable, not to mention my ambitions as a game designer. please understand. This chance for me doesn't come often or may never come again. People may say, my parents can always help me... but I'm building a career independent of my parents but with their help. I need to make good money without their help and this is a big step for me, I hope people will understand.

Teeth

Well... it's more about teeth and jaws . teeth killing me while I sleep. As my dentist says its deep-seated stress. I still haven't played mount and blade in a while. So I'm a bit stressed out. Anyway . Busy busy busy, exercise, work and archery tomorrow. I plugged in a few more free software sites that can be useful for me as anyone who wants to start a business and need original software. Sunday and Monday . I'll be busy working. I'll be developing a interactive 3d animated website so... HELL I'm busy! Audio books . MAN, they help in my writing (cause I speak in my mind in the way I write)! They are a great way to kill time between TERRIBLY LONG loading time. And I checked, its NOT the LAN because I put all the files in my computer... so its slow because its old for the work it does. Rick and Comics . I've been chatting with rick in between the LONG waits between loads. We talked about motivation, realistic expectations and our experience in the industry a

Rage of a Spolied brat

Around 2003, my thesis was destroyed by a terrible computer crash . All that work, destroyed by scamming computer salesmen. the scam was they would sell bad computer parts and say the incompatibility was caused by the other parts and ask you to buy more upgrades for better compatibility. When I learned of the con I felt so violated and so angry that I wanted to ruin them. Dad saw my frustrations, he saw it ate me up. It ate so much, I didn't bother seeing the grade I got despite the crashed computer I failed. unlike my peers who piled excuse after excuse why they couldnt make the deadline, I didn't make any excuse. If they asked why I told them my computer crashed but I didn't argue. It was, after all, my fault. Dad then approached me, he said tito chris is close to the leadership of San Juan. He need only say how important it was to me and our contacts can shut the place down and it will not scam anyone else anymore and I will get the justice I feel I was so denied... I co

Bruised tongue

I'm under a lot of stress, despite how I appear to act . There is a big job that can mean a lot to my family's future in my hands. Thankfully, work here in the office has been relatively simple. These days I wake up a couple of times at night to a clenched jaw and bruised tongue. Anyway, I'm scared shitless because the opportunity is SO big... if I blow it. It may never come again.

Trying to Post more Freq.

I have some new links, slowly this is going to become my professional blog. Although, I see that being very far in the future. I guess it should be, there are no Philippine Game designer blogs I've heard off. At least none that is starting from the ground up and sharing their knowledge. Family business . Helping in the Family Business a bit. Mom, left the conceptual design of the company website to me. The company is getting ready for a world class showcase. The company seems to be doing very well and has much of the edge in an industry niche only they possess. They are opening offices in HK and Germany and will try to kick ass by providing good service and quality while remaining small and mobile. Thats what the british COO mom i hiring said. He said a lot of things that can impress mom. My mom is easily swayed, but there was no reason not to trust him. They checked his background and the guy is what he says he is. It seems to me he sees himself as a giant killer. He wants a le

The Red Genie

When i was a kid I saw a couple or few Aladdin variations . In one of them, the evil uncle (Jafar) gave Aladdin a red ring to help him in his quest for the lamp. In that version, the ring had a genie, red genie, who was very helpful in many of the challenges. It even came to the point that in the last reversal, where Jafar stole the more powerful lamp. The red genie helped Aladin get it back and saved the day... Growing up, I tend to associate competency and timing with the red genie. The red genie may not be the best, but if he can get you the Lamp then there is something more to him than just his measure of power. Not to mention that if it helped you get the more powerful lamp, maybe you and the genie are more powerful than the lamp. Oh yeah, one interesting about the red genie was he may not be as powerful as the lamp but he was not limited in the number of wishes and help he can give. I must have been a gamer before I knew it cause I already saw that genie being more valuable than

is it Destiny?

looking at my background . i've come to realize, that my stumbling path in life actually provided me one of the best combination of experiences to be in game design. 0. Early Gradeschool to Highschool... wanted to design Computer Games. 1st. Gamer, Hardcore . Nuff said. 2nd. A successful business family . I know something about making money. 3rd. Accidentally getting into BS Math . A good math foundation. 3.1. AEGIS and Gaming Groups . 4th. My Stint in UP Fine Arts . A good Arts foundation 5th. MultiMedia Arts in CSB . A good business + artist profession preparation. Introduction to 3ds Max. 6th. 3d Max training and self study while working . Something all game designers kinda' goes through. 7th... latest. Apprenticeship , someone to teach me the key professional skills and things around the business. F*ck . I should just be more patient.. and just keep working hard.

Lists of things to Do and some news

Arj is coming back! last week of November. I'll prep a GURPS game for him and the guys. Andre is coming back as well! December! Bring Coffee Machine to Work on Sat . Reformat Desktop . The Adobe CS3 Trial version has a huge installation bug! Running . Needs some core exercises Escapist vs Simulationist . I've had a talk to Rick and it does come up that I'm a hard core simulationist and the Anyong group is a hard core escapist group. I'm part of a simulationist group too, Daboyzhut is mostly simulationist... and it kinda figures... all of them are professionals. Combat Team Omega, my other group, are airsofters and those who game are simulationists as well. I can't help but see the personality pattern in simulationists... that they want challenges and want to hone their troubleshooting skills. Compared to Escapists which are more of the Arts kind and , unfortunately, i have to admit, are flightier and have less solid ground to base their standards on. Since they de

havent posted in a while...

updates . Well, I've been busy here are some things that have been up. 3d Pinoy Eyeball . Friday (Aug 15), 7pm at Glorrieta. I'll be there, pass some calling cards around and maybe meet some new people to talk to. I don't know what to say tho. MRT/LRT . because of the gas prices, commuter traffic jumped.. i mean skyrocketed lately. start of work at around march, commute was 1hr from santolan to taft/UN. Now its 1.5 hours and I wake up at 6:30, from what was 7am.