gamer pig test blog

5km Nike, 3.85km star trac. 34 mins. 4.0 incline. Upper left knee, Lower right knee. Carpal ok. Averaging 6kph this run. Breathing is still weak. My nostrils and naval cavity feels weird. Like it cannot suck enough air.

13 mins. 2km Nike. 1.8km star trac. 4.0 incline. Right carpal foot feels injured. Could not give it strength till after a bit. Still almost tripped.  Breathing is shit. I really should sprint more. And more I forgot.

28 mins. 3.3km star trac, Nike 4km, 4.0 incline. The kit has injure me slightly. It's not the same. It's my knees. They feel like they're repairing. It's hotter than usually. About 28C and not the usual  22-26C. I'm more tired. Didn't drink a lot of water. 60% consumed. My mental frame rate is really bad when I'm tired.i slip because I disappear and reappear. Imagining shield walls and myself in one. The muscle it takes to win in a contest of strength and the conditioning of bring a man of the first rank. Imagining my own armor and training in such a role. Strength, lifting or strong muscle vs fast muscle. To imagine combat or duels as games of muscle economics as we need to strengthen and shift balance to where we will need it. Skill is shifting it precisely without the need for as much strength. A matter of timing and intuition as our muscle memory does the extraordinary calculations. The image of hundreds of pounds of force in a shield wall. T

 spanking him after giving him a deadline to act is not ideal. Working towards having him join me as I get ready for the day. Apprenticing him by letting him join me in the habits I try to gain. Wake up at 5 and exercise until it's time to eat. Leave before the hour is done to eat and get coffee.

Niko learned about Active Fun. It was 395 and 125 for adult pass. Needs socks. Total of 520php. 

27 minutes, 4km Nike, 3.0km star trac, 4.0 incline, 14lb kit. Knees feeling the pressure. Shoulders too. I need to do this at least once a week. Better if twice and I start running everyday. Just the 4km cause I think it's improving my strength.

27 minutes at 4km Nike But  3.8km in star. Trac. 4.0 incline. A deviation of more than 10%. Annoying Struggles with the Limbic system. I pushed harder and would have had an improvement in my performance from yesterday. 169 weight. My Waist is expanding. I should not be eating so much at night but it's the time I work out and need Protien. How do I stop the bloat when I feel I need the meat. I should let muscle suffer to lose the fat. :( I have to will myself to lose the muscle.

26 mins. 3.48km by star trac and 4km by nike. 4.00 incline. Really tired and started later. Slowly improving and I can get to work early. Slowly culling my habits. Still I need someone to deal with stuff small and distracting. It's like being an awesome fighter. A crowd can kill you no matter if you are William marshal. Distractions can mob you.

After the Dissenting Voice Coping Mechanism I realized the Pacing and Metre is a great tool for my own life. That my sense of Agency, a feeling I can always check when I'm evaluating a circumstance, can tell me where I am in a situation - framed in Pacing. Situations Framed in Pacing has Stage 1: Set up, Stage 2: Initial Conflict and Stage 3: Climax and Consequences. Stage 1: Set up - has a strong desire for Agency. So strong is the desire, I feel lost without Agency. Its only when there is agency I can start dealing with my problems. The sense of agency is a Compass as it directs me to where my biggest problems can be found - because of the lack of agency i feel when I ponder that direction. Stage 2: Initial Conflict - this is a stage I can understand when I am ready or able to deal with the Voluntary Loss of Agency. When I am willing to endure the Loss of Agency in Conflict. How I deal with the loss of Agency and how I advance through the experience determines how long I st

Chaos in my mind. My mind is made of many voices and minds. These minds rarely cooperate unless for things or actions that are of particular interest to them. If my mind was a squad of 10 there is only one or two who can be relied on and the rest are distracted by their own affairs. In few instances they are cohesive and cooperative. When up to about half is mustered and cooperative I am capable and confident. In the rare instances they are all present, I can predict what happens next and act appropriately and in time (like in airsoft). But the rest of the time 9-8 out of 10 are distracted. My Squad, if I visualize them, is made up of Doubt, Regrets, Guilt, Duty, Empathy, Introspection, Playfulness, Pragmatism, Curiosity, and Pride. These guys have different volumes and issues with one another. Introspection is the gossip of the group, always getting into the business of everyone. Playfulness gets everyone along, but only to have fun. In rare instances Playfulness gets Pragmatism a

28 mins 4km by nike and 3.23km by star trac. 4.0 incline. About 6:45 per km. My back had some muscles straining. Left side at the rear rib. Came from a cold. Recovering. Discover I could use pacing Metre technique to evaluate my life. That where I am in pacing stages is where I feel empowered. As I move from set up to initial conflict is how well I deal with loss of agency. Agency as a measure of where I am. The need for agency is where I am in the stages. When I can give up some agency is if I can proceed to initial stages of conflict. And that conflict climaxes as a result of how I fare when agency is lost. The ending, the climax is the result of my character after dealing with an experience where I lose agency.