I'm fatter but still like myself

I'm 170lbs, thats 40lbs more than before I got married. yeah these cheeks are getting rounder and my jaw line is getting smoother. Anyway, i cant help but not hate the weight except for the inconvenience in movement. (Ugg -1DX)

Sitting and reading more does have a physical consequence, until I figure out a way to hook up my laptop to the TV in the Gym and watch my Game Theory lessons I bought.

I don't mind the change of body image cause I like being much smarter than I used to be. learning perpetually and juggling it all is pretty hard and I can either choose to work out or relax. I choose to eat and be merry.

I know my pants are getting more uncomofortable and i should be getting ready for the big Kami Wars meet BUT I don't know. So much has happened and so much work is to be done. I'm here at almost 2AM blogging because when I get stressed I break out in Gaming Stats Calculations.

Yeah, thats totally Hard Wired GMing in my system. Stress triggers panic and like some big dumb bird I bury myself in Game Calculations and Prep.

oh well, thats life.

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