gamer pig test blog

Caffeine can remove hunger for me. Which lead to diet by unintentional starvation (forgetting to eat after 4 hours) The trade off was the amount of caffeine in a day was such levels it affected sleep. Compounding the light sleeper trait if I did not run to sweat it out. So now I'm bloated and not able to loose the weight effectively again. Burning the candle both ends is the best way.

31 minutes 5km by nike at 3.5 incline. Tread mill internals off by clock 20% faster. Dazed and off balanced running like this.

39 mins, 5km, 3 incline No fitbit. 10kph my lungs can't take it. I need to raise my heart rate and practice breathing. Legs are OK. Lungs and diaphragm hurt.

He has better speaking Skills. He's.now brushing his teeth and dressing up before bed when he has the chance. It took a couple of spanking for him to know there is a line he doesn't need to cross, but he's adapted well. He's hyper and sleeps late, because we sleep late. He looks for me these days and I'm at the brink of getting sick. I'm fatigued too often. I need more exercise but I heal too slowly. We need to have him connect to people more and we need to connect more. Both parents have strong gaming and Internet compulsions.

Run Rio 5km 31 mins. My lungs gave way near the last part. I need to condition my breathing and lung capacity.

44 mins, 5km, and 3.0 incline Abdomen hurts from eating 2 hours ago. Food did not digest quicky. Doing worse, although by just looking my body fat levels has gone down. I think my metabolism is coming back very slowly. Will try to sleep more and early as soon as this is over.

43 mins, 5km, 3.0 incline. Right knee. I have a virus but it has not gotten so bad. Breathing is a bit off and allergy is managed at night thanks to the benadryl.

I guess something happened where I don't have the trust assumption any more while I on the other hand keep it up. It's a vicious cycle and it gets worse and worse. I can't get past it because I'm the one who has to let things slide and she can't. She can't let anything slide and that's what she needs. I'm like always brought to the edge and I use shut up and never say anything because it will get me into more trouble let and she just keeps shooting like she will never run out of ammo. She forgets that for me killing myself is the most convenient and simplest solution for all this. Really to die of to stop caring even if I love our son so much I can visualized destroying my body a bit at a time just for him. If I just happen to die don't feel bad for me. I've stopped feeling anything . The only thing I can't do for my son is to half so much fall apart before me. I'd rather just die quickly.