niko update: comprehensible nightmares

Today he was pretty clear on what his nightmares are about. Basically his resistance for basic discipline such as finishing his food, feet on the table and other basic necessities were playing out in his nightmare.

The challenge is reframing  these restrictions as minor obstacles to goals. The discipline, coping mechanisms, and mnemonics I didn't have growing up and learned late in life is now for him.

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