Growing Resentment

working on the backyard. we broke the power raker as we struggled with the uneven grass and tufts. Gaspar cut himself a bit and it confirmed my fears of possibly injuring myself handling heavy machinery i am not used to/ or have no idea how to use.

I have about $140 left from my own money. Gaspar and I agreed to share the expense of using professionals.

Our father who happens to We have a very poor opinion off was the one who had the IDEA it was easy. Dad never thought things through and always had someone else cover for him. Its embarrassing to be born from such a incompetent man.

Anyway. like I've said before about my parents as employers, i never really liked how they and MANY Filipino Employers take labor for granted. I have no business correcting my parents, as a "good" son shouldn't but It doesn't stop my from criticizing a particular elitist mindset that doesn't help the FILIPINO problem.

Its an archaic and FEUDAL mindset.

Anyway, Dad has the reasoning that if this FILIPINO gardener can do it, so can his graphic artist and manufacturing specialist sons can do it, without suffering possible DIBILITATING accident that COULD RUIN THEIR LIVELIHOOD making abilities. The thought of losing any DIGIT of my right hand is FUCKING SCARY! If drawing wasn't already hard as it is.

Its just DUMB, SOOOOOOO DUMB. RECKLESS stupidity and just freaking DUMB.
Dad never learned after ruining Gaspars career by forcing him to take HRM instead of Robot ENGINEERING!!!
Sooooo Fucking Dumb. If my son wanted to be an engineer, I'd overtime to make sure he had everything he needed. What an IDIOT!

Full of Ideas but no IDEA how to implement. Just like a bunch of losers I know.
All talk no work.

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